Most of the time I don’t even want to hear a guy talk, really. Most of the time it’s just suckin’ and leavin’. You know, sometimes a dude will be more interesting and we'll hang out or watch something and then do our thing. A lot of the time, it's just me going over, giving him a blowjob, jerking off and then leaving. Three or four of them I’ve been hooking up with for a couple of years-like once a month or something I’ll get a text and I’ll go hang out with a person again. Often, I’ll have a rotation of dudes that I've been hanging out with. If the first hookup was good, and he seems interested, it might happen a few more times. And there have been a lot of gay dudes who have blown my mind with what they know. Most of them have been positive encounters, but there have been a lot of straight dudes who just want to get their dick sucked by a dude for the first time.
Every once in a while I’m like, “Did that ever actually happen?” I’m still friends with him, I was just at his wedding. Probably at one point, we did it for the last time and it never happened again. We never said any words out loud about it, even while it was happening. We tried to fuck once, but we didn’t know about lube or anything, so it wasn’t going to work. And then things went from jerking him off to giving him hand jobs and blow jobs. I don’t know what, but something compelled me to reach out and grab it.
And then the next time when he whipped out his dick, it was much bigger than it was before. At some point, a summer passed or something-there was a period of time where we didn’t see each other for a while. We jerked off together for a couple of years, and then I remember watching some porn together, too. It started happening around fourth grade we would just be jerking off in the same room together. We’ve never talked about it we've never said a single word about this situation. I had a friend growing up-well, I still have this friend, so this is a little weird. I never really figured that one all the way out. For Sex Lives, GQ speaks with someone about their entire sex life up to this point.